CLAUDIA JOY: Previously on Army Wives...
TREVOR: Death is everywhere here.
And somehow, you're just supposed to put it all away, move on.
Don't ever do that again, do you hear me?
Don't ever leave my sight!
They said that you had a panic attack.
I didn't have a panic attack, Michael! My daughter just died!
Our daughter.
Stop it! Stop fighting!
We've always relied on you.
It's been your strength that kept us together.
Just let us help you now.
And as soon as the week's over, you're moving in with me.
BOTH: Mommy! Mommy! It's a letter from Daddy!
I mean, how do you get past it?
There are no shortcuts.
But you have love in your life.
Use it.
MICHAEL: You drive.
You know I can't drive a stick.
Well, that's why they call it a learner's permit.
- I'm going to teach you. - Why? A stick is archaic.
You learn to drive a stick, you can drive anything.
FYI, Dad, most of the world drives automatic.
Come on. All the Holden women can drive a stick.
It's a tradition.
Grandma Charlotte taught Mom. Mom taught Amanda.
You teaching me is not tradition.
- I know, but your mom... - Yeah. I know.
Michael? I'm running late. You two go. I'll catch up.
Don't go for me.
If you're not ready yet, stay home.
And have Chaplain Price and half the flock
call me all afternoon asking if I'm okay?
- I'm right behind you. - All right. See you.
(BELL TOLLING)
(PEOPLE SINGING HYMN)
HARRY: After you.
No. You go ahead.
Couldn't walk through those doors myself a few times.
Please. You're missing the service.
How long has it been?
Going inside is not all that important, anyway.
God's out here, too.
Is he now?
I'm very sorry for your loss.
Yes. Thank you.
Do you live on post?
Visiting.
- Have we met? - We have.
I'm sorry. I don't remember.
Well, with a mug like this, I don't blame you for forgetting.
You have a nice day, now.
HARRY: Nice talking to you.
Corporal McCadden, I'm Denise Sherwood.
I'll be your nurse today.
Wow. I won the caregiver lottery.
Thank you, Corporal.
- Call me Mac. - Okay, Mac.
I hope you're not into legs.
Because what's left of mine are none too pretty.
Well, the Army is doing amazing things with prosthetics.
You'll be the bionic man in no time.
Yeah. They gave me that whole dog and pony show.
But I got to tell you, I'm growing fond of the stumps.
The best part?
40 pounds lighter.
Finally made my ideal weight.
You know, you've got a great smile.
It's like that painting.
Hell, you know...
Mona Lisa.
Well, that is one I haven't heard before.
You know, that wasn't a come-on. I've got a girl back home.
She hasn't seen me like this yet.
We talked on the phone, she said it was cool,
but seeing is different, right?
Some of the guys were talking...
When she sees what I see, she'll love you even more, okay?
I have other patients to see. I'll check in on you later.
Hurry up, okay?
Because I feel myself getting better every second you're here.
Shut up, Harry. No, you're stupid.
Are you and Harry at it again?
He told me to wear a tie.
But he can't tie one and neither can I.
Well, your dad can't tie a tie worth a darn, either.
I have to tie it for him all the time.
- You look very handsome. - Thanks.
Why's my little man all dressed up?
Going to ask for a date.
So who's the lucky girl?
It's a secret, but I guess I can tell you.
Okay.
Mrs. Holden.
Wow. Wow! You are really swinging for the fences on that one.
- Morning! - Morning!
Out.
Out. Out.
So do you know who Joan of Arc was?
She was a teenager girl who led a whole army.
She heard voices.
Yeah, which makes her crazy.
She was not!
She was brave and strong. Right, Mommy?
That's right.
You're just jealous because I got the lead
- and you're just painting stuff. - Hey.
Like I want to play a crazy girl in some church play.
- So do you know your lines yet? - There are too many for my head.
Well, you better start learning them.
LUCAS: Daddy! KATIE: Daddy!
Hey.
- Hey. How are you? - Hey.
Wow!
- Do you know what this is? - No.
It's a breastplate.
But I don't have breasts yet.
You're on your own.
It's to protect your heart, sweetie.
- So the soldiers can keep fighting? - That's right.
Help me learn my lines, Daddy. Please.
- You can take all the other parts. - No, no, no, no, no.
Your daddy is not much of an actor, sweetie.
But you're a real solider.
You'll know how to say all the words right.
That way when you come to my play, you'll clap the hardest.
Well, there's nothing that I would like more than
to come to your play, Katie. You know that, right?
Right.
But your daddy is going to have to leave again.
You're always leaving.
You or me?
I'll go.
MICHAEL: Okay. Okay. Wait, wait, wait. Wait. Wait.
MICHAEL: Okay. All right.
Start it up again. Foot on the brake.
- All right. - Good. Now listen. Listen to me.
Emmalin, it's not that hard, okay?
You just let the clutch out until you feel the engine catch inside,
slowly push on the gas. You can do this.
It's not working.
Hey, if I can train a battalion
to run a combat operation center out of a tent,
I can teach you how to drive a stick.
You can do this.
Look, give it up, Dad. Okay? Why do I need this in my life?
It's not like I'm ever going to operate heavy machinery.
I mean, a lot of good this did Amanda.
- I'm sorry. - No. No. That's okay.
That's okay. All right.
You can do this. Start it up.
You can do it.
MICHAEL: Emmalin! Emmalin!
I can't. Okay, I can't feel it.
I'm never going to feel it.
Look, this is Mom's tradition. If she doesn't care, why should you?
Emmalin! Hey! Wait.
Emmalin. All right, I'll drive.
Hi.
Hi, Finn.
- I tried to find red ones. - Oh.
Thank you. I love yellow.
Would you go on a date with me?
Mom! Shoo! Shoo!
Okay, okay. Can I just talk to her for one minute? Just one.
I promise. I promise.
Did you ever meet Harry, Finn's imaginary friend?
Yes. We were introduced at the PX.
Amanda used to talk to her teddy bear till she was eight.
Did she fall in love with her friend's husband?
No. I don't think so.
Well, Finn is gobsmacked over you.
So I thought maybe you could just go with it.
- Mom! - Okay.
Okay.
Finn. I would be honored to go on a date with you.
- Really? - Mmm-hmm.
How about you, Harry? Are you coming with us?
He's not here. I left him home.
Oh. Okay. Of course.
That's okay. I do that all the time, too.
What? I'm sorry.
So do you know when you're leaving yet?
Three days.
Three days?
Wow. You've never given me lead time before.
This is the first time I've had any.
Katie is pretty upset about me missing her play.
Yeah. Well, you know, she did this play because of you.
- She did? - Female soldier,
commands an army.
She wants you to be proud of her.
I told her I'd help her learn her lines.
For the next couple of days I'm going to be super dad.
Is that all?
You have something else in mind?
Yeah, sexy. I've got a few things.
Time keeps moving on
Through the sunshine and the storm
And my dreams are set in stone
That someday I'll be who I wanna be
But for now
I'll wait for the sun to shine again
I'm not that tired yet.
I think I'll go downstairs and watch a movie.
You get some sleep. Okay?
Claudia Joy. I miss her, too.
I know.
I miss my wife.
I bought some of that egg bread you like.
I'll make French toast for breakfast.
I'm looking for the brighter days
To come my way
Good evening. Do you know where this guy lives?
I found him running around without a collar,
and I'm sure somebody's missing him.
No. I've never seen him before.
Sometimes you let them go
and they find their way home all by themselves.
Listen,
I don't know you.
It's very late.
Whenever you don't want me here, I won't be.
Who are you? What do you want from me?
I don't want a thing.
Really? Everybody else does.
Everybody expects me to just go right back to normal.
They don't expect it. They need it.
What about me?
What about what I need?
What you need is everything you keep turning away from.
What I need is to be left alone.
Not bad.
You got game?
You got anyone else to play with?
Show me what you've got.
(LAUGHING) See? I suck.
It's okay. Just a little to the right.
A little more arc on the ball.
You're not military, right?
Nope. Just married to the mob.
But you're like a psychiatrist, right?
And there's like an oath or something.
You can't tell anyone else what I say. Right?
That's usually between a doctor and his patient.
But we can keep things between the two of us.
EMMALIN: Well...
You know, I used to feel safe here on post.
But now I can't tell the good guys from the bad guys.
I mean, some guy wearing that uniform
blew up my sister.
I know.
My dad was teaching me how to drive a stick,
and these soldiers ran by,
and I wanted to floor it, take them all out.
(SIGHING)
That can't be healthy.
Didn't floor it.
Makes it healthy enough.
My mom doesn't want to talk to me.
I mean, she talks,
but she's like not all there.
It's like I'm not even part of the family anymore.
Come on, Tommy, one more round. I ain't even tired yet.
Can't treat me like a cripple in front of a beautiful woman.
TOMMY: Your session is over.
Wore him out.
Tomorrow, Tommy, and this time bring the beer.
Dream on.
What's one beer going to do to me? Make my arms fall off?
Hospital rules. Sorry.
Absolutely not.
They keep pumping me full of all kinds of drugs
and I can't have one lousy beer?
Uh-uh.
(CHUCKLES)
There's a lot of swelling, Mac. You're going to have to take it easy.
I do that and the bad guys win.
They thought they'd body-bagged me, but here I am.
You want to talk about it?
Foot patrol in Baghdad.
IED woke me up with a big-ass hello.
I actually watched one of my legs fly right over my head.
That's something you don't see every day.
Was there a lot of pain?
No. No pain at all.
Until I woke up. I was all groggy.
I thought I'd wrecked my motorcycle.
I guess because I always thought I'd lose a leg if I kept driving so crazy.
Man, there's nothing like that wind in your face,
that power underneath you.
Yeah, I know what you mean.
You do? You ride?
Well, not since I was a teenager. My brothers had dirt bikes.
My dad was straight military.
No daughter of his was ever going to ride a motorcycle.
So I'd sneak out in the woods to meet my brothers.
They'd let me take a turn.
And then Dad caught us,
and that was my last ride.
I'll never forget that feeling, though. It was like I had wings.
CHASE: Okay! Listen to me.
Stop hitting each other and get over here,
or I'm done with this play. Right here. Now pay attention.
I told you this before. The bout is the match.
Fencing is all about concentration.
En garde.
- En garde! - En garde.
- Okay. - Katie, Lucas.
Stop beheading your father. Hey, Chase, welcome back.
- ROXY: Where's Pamela? - I gave her the day off.
She promised to sit these two.
Well, between you and me, I've had easier training missions.
Well, four's easier than two.
- Really? - No. Go impale somebody.
I'll pick them up at 6:00. Have them laundered and dried.
Thank you.
You know what? You guys just play together.
I'm going to go make some phone calls.
No, Daddy. I don't know my lines yet.
We'll work on it tonight.
FINN: Stab you. T. J: Stab you.
BETTY: When's the last time you looked at these sheets?
That kid of yours should still be in diapers.
Great. Another mood. What a surprise.
In case you've forgotten, Roxy, I'm dying.
How can I forget? You keep telling me all the time.
First off, Finn does not wet the bed anymore.
And second, I washed those sheets
before you laid your sorry-ass butt on them.
I'm sorry.
You are? You're sorry?
Well, you took me in when nobody else would have.
I mean, it's no bed and breakfast, but it beats being alone.
Oh, God. You got bad news?
The cancer's progressed.
The doctor wants me to start chemo.
- How long? - I don't know. Ten weeks maybe.
Unless of course the cells jump ship from my breast
and take up some residence in some of my other parts.
What can I do?
Just buy me some damn sheets.
Okay.
(SIGHS)
You got to get ready for your date.
What? Right, my date. I completely forgot.
Finn is one excited little boy. You don't want to break his heart.
Love is an amazing thing, isn't it?
Can't see it. Can't touch it.
Can't smell it. Yet it's there with us from the day we're born.
You enjoy yourself tonight. It's allowed.
Wait. How did you know about my date?
Don't sneak around. I know you're there.
I'm trying not to wake you.
I sleep in the afternoons.
Nights are too hard.
Well, that'll get better.
Hey, you know what I did right before I enlisted?
I bought this brand-new bike,
and I drove it cross-country for a year.
It was a trip of a lifetime.
I met the coolest people.
Might do it again sometime.
Probably in one of those special vans.
You know, with today's prosthetics
you might just get back on that motorcycle again.
No. I promised my folks.
This is hard enough on them.
I can't risk anything else happening to me.
You know, for them.
Betty Camden.
(MIMICS DRUM ROLL)
Look at this handsome man on his first date.
Yeah. You look great, kid.
Would you take a picture of both of us together?
What is this, prom? He's six years old, for God's sakes.
The insurance company isn't putting out a dime on the Hump Bar
until I fill out these forms.
Give a little?
I want to be in the picture, too.
That is it! I'm going to hang you from the rafters!
Sorry. I'm really sorry.
That's okay. Why don't you boys run and play?
- And I'll clean it up, okay? - FINN: Okay!
You scared him to death.
Look, I kept those boys out of their own house, all day,
just to make you happy, but nothing does.
What is your problem with kids?
I just don't like them.
Well, you're missing out.
If it weren't for those boys, I wouldn't get out of bed sometimes.
Did you even look at Finn? Did you see how excited he was?
Are you so jaded that you can't find anything to love in that?
I told you, Roxy. I don't like kids. What else do you want me to say?
Nothing. That says it all.
Sir. I'm here for Mrs. Holden.
She's expecting you.
CLAUDIA JOY: Hi.
You look beautiful.
Thanks. You look dashing.
- What's that? - Like a movie star.
- Really? - Mmm-hmm.
Don't wait up. Come on.
My shrimp is delicious. How are your chicken nuggets?
They taste better when they're shaped like animals.
More ketchup?
So I thought your friend Harry might be joining us tonight.
- He's here. - Right. Sorry. Of course.
Hi, Harry. Glad you could join us.
Not there. At the bar.
(WHISPERING) He drinks.
That man at the bar. That's your friend, Harry?
Yep.
Check!
Mom!
- Mom! - Okay.
Well, that was pretty great.
Especially after such a long day.
Hey, thank you for watching the kids.
They totally wore me out.
They're your kids. It can't be that hard.
It shouldn't be. I know. It's just I'm gone so much.
Honey, don't doubt yourself.
They are crazy about you.
Yeah. Now maybe, but what about later?
Being separated this much,
I worry, you know, how it's affecting them and us.
You worry about us?
You don't?
Nope.
You know how much I love you, right?
Better. I can feel it.
MAN ON TV: I never thought it would end like this.
WOMAN: Please, you've got to tell her.
MAN: I can't.
WOMAN: But you promised.
MAN: There's so much I wish I could tell you.
Can we watch a comedy for a change? I need to laugh.
You're not real. I'm not talking to you.
I'm real enough.
(SIGHING) Go away.
I told you. When you don't want me here, I won't be.
You know, I've had it with these cryptic little sayings of yours.
You're angry.
Damn right I'm angry.
I wanted more. I wanted to see her graduate college.
I wanted to help her buy a wedding dress.
I wanted to hold her babies in my arms.
And you blame God.
Where was he? You tell me that.
Where the hell was God when my daughter was murdered?
Protecting Roland and Denise and you.
It was Amanda's time.
Nothing was going to change that.
No.
Death is a part of life.
You can't have one without the other.
It was too soon.
We all have a time,
and it always comes.
Until then, love is about the best thing going.
And there seems to be a lot of that around here.
You just have to let it in.
You have a good night now.
I don't remember ordering a taxi.
You going to just lie there,
or are you going to help me get you into this chair?
DENISE: I'm breaking every hospital rule in the book.
You have lost your mind.
Yeah, don't remind me.
You keep the dead bodies in there?
Only the legs.
I love you.
How's that?
Liquid heaven.
I can't tell you how much this means to me.
I finally feel like I'm home.
- I don't drink beer. - Come on. One. For me.
Can't let the gimp drink alone.
Okay.
Now, you know why I said you looked like Mona Lisa?
Because even when you smile you look a little sad.
Yeah. Maybe a little.
There was a bombing recently.
I was there and I froze.
That girl on the dirt bike, she would have done something.
No, there's not much you can do with a bomb.
Trust me, I know.
Yeah, well, I didn't even try.
What happened to that girl? When did I lose her?
You didn't lose anything.
- She's still there. I can see her. - No, you can't.
Sure, I can. Wind in her face.
Hand pulling back on that throttle.
Making that bike go fast as she can go.
(CHUCKLES) Yeah. See? There she is.
Come on. One more shot at it.
Why is this so important to you? It is just shifting.
Because I think it's important to you.
Of course it is. It's a tradition.
- Keys to the truck, please. - Coming right up.
I'll have you shifting like a trucker by this afternoon, Emmalin.
Come on.
Okay. Put your hands up, touching mine.
You don't have to do this.
Yes, I do. I want to.
Your right hand is the gas.
Your left hand is the clutch.
There are two options for you.
To push in or to pull out.
The easier part is pushing on the gas. You can hear it revving.
But what's really important is the clutch.
It's silent. You have to trust it more.
Until you trust, you can't move forward.
You're not the only one who's sad, you know.
I'm sad, too.
I know.
I wanted to talk to you, but, you know, you weren't listening.
I'm listening now.
Cold
In the summer breeze
Yeah, you're shivering
Is this how you taught Amanda?
Mmm-hmm.
It is.
And it's how my mother taught me.
And I hope one day it's how you teach your little girl.
...willow bending with the storm, you'll make it
There's hope for
The hopeless
There's hope for
The hopeless
There's hope
Look, Roxy, about this kid thing.
Betty, I got it. You don't like them.
I couldn't have children.
I wanted to, but it just never happened.
It's just easier to act like you don't want them
than to be jealous because you do.
God, Betty...
God. Listen to me opening up like this.
My mind is turning into weak sauce. The cancer is hitting my brain.
Sorry I'm late. I was talking to my mom.
Who started the conversation, you or her?
It just kind of happened.
And when it did, I couldn't shut up.
It's like you said, once I open up, the other person does, too.
You're okay, Doc. Thanks.
I'm glad I could help.
Well, it's just the tip of the iceberg,
so we might be shooting hoops for a while.
Always up for a game.
I was wondering, you see, I got this friend who's...
She's kind of freaked.
And I told her you were cool.
Lauren, Roland. Roland, Lauren.
- Hey. - Hey.
You want to shoot some hoops?
Sure.
CHASE: I left my wallet and my keys right there just a few minutes ago.
PAMELA: Well, they didn't just fly away.
CHASE: I need my ID, Pamela.
Katie. Lucas.
- Have you seen Daddy's keys? - No.
- She's sitting on them! - I am not!
Let Daddy have them, sweetheart.
No!
"Joan, to save my soul
"I will forfeit my body.
"I beg you to hear my confession."
"All the things that people believe,
"I was them. The cause becomes you when you are in the fight."
That was perfect.
You are going to be great.
- I'm going to forget my lines. - No. No, you won't.
When you're up there, in the moment, you're going to remember them all.
I'm sorry.
Hey. Do you know where I am when I'm gone?
No.
I am right in there,
and you and Lucas are in mine.
We're always together.
- We are? - Yeah.
And when you're up on that stage tomorrow,
I'm going to be right there with you,
hearing every word in my head,
just like we rehearsed them.
And I'm going to be clapping harder than anybody.
He got sent up to Walter Reed this morning.
Going to get fitted for a new pair.
He said to give you this.
WOMAN O VER PA: Dr. Krauss to the blood bank.
Where is he?
He'll be here. He promised. We just have to wait.
- Hey ho! Hey! - Daddy! Daddy! Daddy!
You guys look so amazing. I've missed you all so much.
I know you've only got a minute, so how are you? Are you okay?
Are you alive? Are you hurt in any way at all?
I'm good. And yes. Yes. No.
Baby, I heard about the Hump Bar. Man, that was scary news.
And I'm sorry to hear about Amanda.
But I knew you were okay.
I felt it inside.
How about everybody else? They doing all right?
They're getting there.
And Betty? That old bat make it through?
The bat's right here.
T. J: She's living with us now.
She's sleeping in Finn's bed.
Finn, are you okay with that?
Oh, oh! Guess what, Finn's in love.
- With Betty? - No.
No! Mrs. Holden.
As in Claudia Joy Holden.
But, Finn, what about Madison from swim class?
We worked on that, remember?
I thought you were going to ask her out.
I got scared.
You know something,
I bet she likes you, too, and just is afraid to tell you.
- Really? - Yeah.
Time's up, baby. I got to go.
T.J., take care of your mom for me, okay?
- I love you guys so much. - Bye, Daddy.
- We love you, too. Bye. - Bye.
- Bye, Daddy! Bye! Bye, Daddy! - Bye, guys.
Bye!
Bye, Daddy! Bye!
Trouble is her only friend
And he's back again
ROXY: You just did.
FINN: I want to see him longer.
Makes her body older than it really is
And she says it's high time she went away
No one's got much to say in this town
Are you asleep?
No.
Good.
Trouble is the only way is down
I've missed you, too.
Down, down
As strong as you were tender you go
I'm watching you breathing for the last time
A song for your heart but when it is quiet
I know what it means and I'll carry you home
So my daughter, Katie, was telling me the story of Joan of Arc,
a peasant girl who got the entire French Army to follow her.
She died at 19, burned at the stake.
And another day God will give her some
Katie started crying, and it made me cry, too.
Trouble is the only way is down
Partly for Joan, but mostly for my Katie.
For believing so much in a girl who lived 600 years ago.
I'm watching you breathing
It made me remember that I was like that once, too.
I mean, we all were.
...but when it is quiet
I know what it means and I'll carry you home
I'll carry you home
But as we get older, we forget to believe in imagination.
(ENGINE REVVING)
And someone's little girl
Was taken from the world tonight
Under the Stars and Stripes
Hello.
Thank you.
My daughter has faith.
That her father will come home in one piece.
That tomorrow will be better than today.
That she can be brave.
That she can be St. Joan.
As strong as you were tender you go
I'm watching you breathing for the last time
A song for your heart...
I guess what I'm saying is let's not forget to believe.
Let your imagination rule again.
Or something like that.